woke up every hour last night with a mouth full of blood. its more emotionally disturbing than anything. i can deal with the grossness of it. it's the reality check that platelets aren't holding yet and this is the real deal....just in case i had persuaded myself otherwise.
called the dr. this 7 am to order platelets for today instead of tomorrow, happened to be my dr on call, he apologized fir not telling me he was leaving for a month after i mentioned that i didn't dig the revolving dr thng. got platelets in sparkly new private room at outpatient services, which is now open on weekends. so we can hopefully leave 2200 west behind forever. this is great news. clean, sparkly, new versus old, filthy and well what can I say, tainted with bad memories.
while transfusing, i got text saying power at house turned off by pnm. i arrive home, cell phone arrives, can't charge it cuz no power. mercury retrograde. ug
good news: with faxed dr note they turned power back on. whew.
exhausted from last night and hospital trip. love u all.
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Karen, I check in with your blog every few days and find your sharing of this journey you are on quite brave and brutally honest. Your example of being very present with the good, bad and ugly mirrors, to me, the gift of staying present. Yes, all of it is most DIFFICULT, to say the least. Know that I send you blessings daily, from afar. Looking forward to Mercury going direct and wishing you an easier day today..
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I have never met you but I heard about you/this illness via running into your mother not long ago. We worked together what is now many years ago. So my thoughts, prayers go to you and also to your family in this very difficult time you find yourself in. I am hoping that the weight of this journey lightens and that simple joys still find a way into a day. As commented above...wishing you an easier day today too...
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